the last beautiful girl

dear pretty eyes,

     how are you? its been a while since i last heard news about you.
  i just want to let you know that after all this years, you are still
  that one person in this whole world i cant stop thinking about,
  and i cant stop getting worried about.

  i wish i could go back to the days where a flicker of your smile meant a lot to you.
i know i wasnt the best but, everytime i think about you, i feel hope. i feel stars.

 i know your life has been great after us. lots of guys to choose from,
 i know i will be happy for you, but i cant tell you how my heart breaks when someone
 else makes you smile, or completes your world.

its been seven years since i held your arms. i did everything to forget you.
i drank, smoked, find someone, win friends, walked, thought, lost sleep, everything.

and when i decided to let you go, i decided not to look back.
but here i am, thinking of you, your face, your eyes.

i realized that, i dont have to try too hard to forget you completely, because
you will forever be part of who i am.
and i realized that, there might be a number of days in the future where thoughts of you
visit this old scar.

please dont get me wrong, i completely made peace with the fact that you will no longer
be mine.

i just have to think of a way to be happy, anytime thoughts of you like this,
suddenly crosses my heart once in a while.

i miss you. i wish you all the best in life.
i love you,
but letting you know might not be important anymore.

now is the time

ive had enough of myself talking the talk but not walking the walk.

3 things i wil focus myself on now.

1. learn to make money online
2. practice playing the piano
3. exercise

whew

im on the point where i remember being in love with her again.
or maybe im in love with the 'idea' that im still loving her.

(raise up your hands) - her name is synonymous to this phrase.

belated happy birthday.
i love you.

from this day forward,
i will let you go.

stuck but trying to fly

upon seeing her pictures, i figured out i have not moved on from loving her all this time.
but, that's the reason why im here.
parts of my life will be spent thinking about her.
certain parts will be spent accepting, and always hoping 
for the best.

now or never

i always wanted to become a musician.
that is why i will take back my life now.

then and now

i forgot a principle. the principle that i have to live in the present.
i am not part of her present life.i belong to the past.
her past.i must had re-live this fantasy somewhere in my dream,
and my brain tricked me it was yesterday.

oh my.. looking to the present again, i will be back on track.