the last beautiful girl

dear pretty eyes,

     how are you? its been a while since i last heard news about you.
  i just want to let you know that after all these years, you are still
  that one person in this whole world i cant stop thinking about,
  and i cant stop getting worried about.

  i wish i could go back to the days where a flicker of your smile meant a lot to you.
i know i wasnt the best but, everytime i think about you, i feel hope. i feel stars.

 i know your life has been great after us. lots of guys to choose from,
 i know i will be happy for you, but i cant tell you how my heart breaks when someone
 else makes you smile, or completes your world.

its been seven years since i held your arms. i did everything to forget you.
i drank, smoked, find someone, win friends, walked, thought, lost sleep, everything.

and when i decided to let you go, i decided not to look back.
but here i am, thinking of you, your face, your eyes.

i realized that, i dont have to try too hard to forget you completely, because
you will forever be part of who i am.
and i realized that, there might be a number of days in the future where thoughts of you
visit this old scar.

please dont get me wrong, i completely made peace with the fact that you will no longer
be mine.

i just have to think of a way to be happy, anytime thoughts of you like this,
suddenly crosses my heart once in a while.

i miss you. i wish you all the best in life.
i love you,
but letting you know might not be important anymore.